Release

Last year was the first year that I took on the One Word Challenge. I didn’t link up with anyone, didn’t join some big group of people who were sharing and supporting and encouraging each other to live out said word or anything like that. I just picked a word. Something that represented everything that I wanted accomplish and attain in the coming year and I went with it.

Last year, knowing that we had been struggling for almost a year to get pregnant with our second and that I had just recently dove head first into running a Graphic Design Business, I chose the word CREATE.

My goal was to create new things and adventures for our family. To “create” a new being and bring a new baby into our lives. In the grand scheme of things, I feel like I was very successful both in a literal term (hello baby #2!) and as far as my business and my blog go.

I went back and forth on what to use for my word this year. I threw around ideas like relax (because I know with a business, too many ambitions, and two boys at home that I’ll need to be doing some of that this year) and breathe (see aforementioned reasons for the word “relax”).

But those didn’t fit. Those are things I can coach myself to do on a daily basis, but not something that I want to base my entire year around. I spent 366 days last year eating, sleeping and breathing the word create and bringing new meaning and definition to it for my life and my business. I wanted something that I could be that intense with this year.

Then, the other day while I was folding the millionth load of laundry in two days (seriously, what is it about laundry and how much it seems to multiply with a baby around?!) it came to me. My word for 2013. Plain as day, clear as crystal I knew that this word was THE word for me…

2012 was a year of growth for me personally and professionally.

But there are things in my life that I still feel like are holding me back. Demons and doubts and questions that prevent me from moving forward and really embracing the role that I’ve been given in life and the place that I feel like I a need to be (and want to be) in my life.

Fears, doubts, worries…

Unresolved feelings and emotions…

Mistakes, hurts, and grudges that I haven’t let go of…

All of those things that I feel are holding me back. Binding me to a past that I no longer want and keeping me from the future that I want and deserve.

This word doesn’t only have to do with letting go of things that have happened, but also with my incessant need to control everything and dominate life. My mentality that I have to be everything for everyone all the time.

Because I can’t do that. I can’t do it all, no matter how hard I try or how much I think that I can. Life just doesn’t work that way. At all. And stressing about that…worrying about being it all and doing it all…only makes me miss the moments that I’ve been given and the things that matter. Moments like these…

And I am ready to let go of that. Ready to release those chains that keep me in an uproar and a whirlwind…trying to conquer and divide and overcome every little aspect of life.

In 2013, I want to learn to let it go.

Do you choose a word of the year every year? What was last years? Did you live up to it? Which word are you choosing for 2013?