You know those times in life when you are walking around with a to-do list, a want-to-do list, a have-to-do list and then the I-don’t-even-want-to list all mocking you on any given day? That has been me the last several months. I have started quite a few little things here on this blog that have gotten pushed aside. Between everything that […]

I really want to tell you what a wreck I am. I want to tell you that I am scared. That I worry too much. That I doubt. That I fear stupid things that I shouldn’t. That I second guess nearly every decision that I ever make. I wonder all day, every single day if I am […]

Now that 2016 is underway (the fourth already…really?), I’ve been finishing up my goal setting and self-evaluation from last year. I have to say I hate the term “resolution” because that sounds like a nice way of saying, “these are all the things that I say that I’m going to do just because that’s what […]

Happy New Year Friends! I have to say, I’m one of the many, many people who are in full agreement that 2015 was a terrible year. In 2015… I watched a best friend lose her precious baby girl at birth. I watched never-met-before friends lose children through the power of social media. I’ve watched marriages fall apart. […]

I know this post has been a long time coming. I think that a big, BIG part of me was is scared to really talk about this. Because even the people in my life that I thought I could trust to be supportive and encouraging during this have let me down and begun the “process” of […]

I really wish that I was as strong as people seem to think that I am. Truly. I’ve gotten so many comments in weeks past, with the news of our adoption and then the news pretty much immediately following that our son may have autism. Comments from people I have known for years and comments […]

I’m tired of having to defend my decisions. Or my beliefs. Or my choices. I brought two little boys into the world and my sole purpose in this life is to raise them to be strong men. Good men who love Jesus and love people. Men who make mistakes, but who own those mistakes and do what it takes […]

I’ve debated for a while now on whether to talk about this on my blog just yet. I reached out to a few friends and opened up about it, told family, entrusted those who I thought would be supportive of us no matter what. And, since my Instagram and Facebook posts have kind of come […]

I feel fear. I’m terrified, humanly, of what might happen day in and day out. I fear not raising enough money for our adoption and to bring our baby home. I fear the hatred toward me, my family or our new son or daughter if we end up with a child who is not caucasian…because despite […]

There’s lots of “rules” with modern day Christianity. It’s all the things you are and aren’t “allowed” to do and think and feel that really left me thinking several months ago about whether I wanted to be a Christian, by the worlds terms, or a follower of Christ and a Disciple for Jesus in scriptural […]