Time for a Confessional

With the vast LACK of blogging I have done lately, I thought I would give you guys a little run down on what’s been going on in the life of me lately. Not a whole lot interesting, to be honest; but nonetheless. The several Facebook and Twitter messages I’ve gotten the last week or so asking where I was and when I was going to get back to posting has left me feeling like it’s time to pick up my blogging habit again. I’ll admit that I’m somewhat frustrated with blogging in its entirety right now. Which explains my lack of presence in the blogosphere.

I started blogging as a way to let out my feelings and my frustrations and whatnot after I had Little Man. I started discovering other moms who were feeling the way that I was, found meme’s, and eventually gained a few followers. I kept writing what was on my heart and on my mind and the followers [and comments] kept coming. Then I started noticing the ‘business’ side of things. The giveaways, the sponsors, the advertisers…the money and “stuff” that blogging could bring [and has brought] to lots of big time bloggers. So I set up a PR policy, hosted a few giveaways, did reviews…and lately I’ve realized that I’ve gotten away from my style of blogging. I started blogging to please, well you. The readers, instead of blogging for myself. And somewhere between the moving and the relocating and whatnot, my desire to blog for all of you went away. I started keeping a paper journal again {a gift from my hubby for our anniversary} and just haven’t taken the time to write my feelings out here on the ‘net.

Sooooo….that being said, I am taking down my PR page. No more PR for this chick. I love free stuff and giveaways. But I refuse to let ‘business’ become the driving force behind my blog. I love to write. Always have. And quite frankly, the photography building aspect of my life right now is all of the business that I can handle. There are a few sponsorships I have received that are paid up for the next few months, so I will keep those posted. But when they expire, I’ll take down my sponsorship page.

I just feel like so many bloggers have lost their identity and their purpose to their blogs. We all started out as no-bodies trying to get our words out there. And now it’s all about followers and comments and ads and giveaways. I just want to write. Granted, I love hearing from you guys and knowing that my words resonate meaning with you all. In many, many, many ways that’s what keeps me blogging. Keeps me posting my thoughts out there instead of just leaving them in a journal. ‘Cause ya’ll understand. Ya’ll get what I mean and what I’m feeling and I’ve gotten emails and messages from some of you thanking me for my honesty. And to me that’s what it’s about. Not all the other. I feel like some blogs aren’t even authentic anymore. There is just a bunch of product name dropping and reviewing and whatnot. I don’t have a problem with blogs that host giveaways and seek sponsorship. Really. It’s just not for me.

I don’t want to become that blogger either that doesn’t have time to talk to her ‘fans’ or ‘followers’ or, in my opinion, friends. The one who doesn’t answer emails or comments or anything because I’m too busy and don’t have time in my schedule to be social and friendly. I’m still visiting your blogs. I may not be commenting as much because I’m reading a lot of them via email, but I promise I’m still around.   🙂

I’m eager to see the feedback on this post. Had 6 followers leave over the past several weeks because the military lifestyle didn’t interest them, they were bored with my content, and my post on Boudoir Photography was not only ‘unchristian’ but too controversial for their taste. Good for them. I think it’s a little shallow and close-minded but whatever. And for the person that said that military life didn’t interest them? That’s fine well and good if you don’t want to read a ”military” blog…but did you even REALIZE when you started following me that that’s who I was?

Anywho….guess that will be about all for today. Heading to my parents house tonight for a visit. Have a great Wednesday!