Everything to Everyone

I’ve always been one of those “people pleasing” kind of folks.

I don’t like for people to be upset with me (usually…just depending on who you are and whether I really care or not) and I’m all about making sure everyone is taken care of.

When I got married and had Little Man, I stopped caring so much about everyone else and started focusing solely on them. My husband and my son. The two people whose happiness and well-being mattered the most to me.

I didn’t realize that running a business from home, with a toddler, would be such an undertaking.

I didn’t realize that said toddler nearing three years old would train me to the point of tears a few times a week.

I didn’t realize that having to fold and put away our small family’s laundry during the week would become something that I had to sit down and pencil in to my schedule.

I’m beat.

And I’m overwhelmed.

And I’m not sure what is going to have to give for me to catch a breather.

I love my son to pieces, but theterrible three’s are kicking me in the teeth. The whining, the crying, the tantrums, the defiance, the never-ending-repetition of the games and the “look at me mommy!” mantras are sending me up the wall.

The laundry, the dusting, the floors (oh my heaven, the floors…I can’t keep those things clean anymore), the meals, the laundry, the dishes…I’ve managed to stay somewhat on top of it if only out of fear of becoming a hoarder mom.

The clients, the blogging, the emails, the designs, the reading of said blogs, the commenting, the responding to comments, the networking, the picture taking…it’s all important and I can’t seem to let one single thing go.

I love my family. I love my job. I love my writing.

And I can’t seem to let any one particular area slip.

Because they all mean too much to me.

So I find myself cutting corners on the stuff that I don’t really like.

Like washing and drying the laundry…and leaving it piled in a basket on top of the dryer.

And opting for quick meals (like Crock-Pot BBQ Chicken) instead of going all out and fixing huge entrees.

And reading blogs on my iPod while I sit on the couch and entertain the kiddo (which is why I’m slipping on the comments a bit. Got to figure out a way to do better with that).

And staying up until midnight nearly every night to get some work done in peace…even if that means sleeping less than five or six hours a night.

Because it all means too much to me to give up. I’ve worked too hard to get to where I’m at, to be doing what I enjoy doing, to let things slip.

So for now, I’ll continue to be everything for everyone. Continue to work toward being the all-powerful wife and mother who still keeps her home clean, her family fed, her husband happy, her children entertained, and runs a successful business without losing her sanity.

There has to be a way, right?

Don’t answer that.

*Linking up today with Just. Be. Enough.

 

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